8h00
I’ve had breakfast and taken a shower
My nose is going fucking crazy, runny thick unswallowable phlegm and I can’t fucking breath
I just lie here, I can’t trust myself to go anywhere
It’s Thursday. Listening to the radio.
Reach for the lights. 10h10
Stanley Kubrick
Fear and Loathing
Fear
Lines
Papillon, I’m reading
Lost, waiting, waiting, waiting…
Smoking, Tobacco Drum Extra Mild
Waiting, Hallucinations, Illusions
Dreams, No Dreams, Nothing
Nothing, Nothingness, Waiting
Inhale. Inhale
Suicide
Done It.
Just had something to eat; it’s 11h11, rebirth
Nothing, still nothing, empty
I don’t know what to do with myself.
I’m in my room; I want to get out of here
I’m going fucking insane but there’s nowhere to go. It’s a fucking crazy feeling; I have no fucking idea why I do this to myself
Right now that’s all I want. I’m craving the nothingness, the real hurts, hurts like hell
I’m fucking bored and rambling, somewhere in November 2002